July 31, 2009

Next Appointment

Just wanted to let you all know that my dad's next appointment is August 10th. He will have a CT scan done and chemo as well. I will keep you all updated. Check this site as I will be posting as often as I can.

By the way, my mom's birthday was yesterday (Thursday, the 30th). My mom reads this blog and your comments. So if you want to put a little late happy birthday comment on here to her she would love it. Sorry I didn't post yesterday to where you could actually tell her happy birthday on her actual birthday.

Just want to leave you all with a verse. May you apply this verse to your life today and every day.

Colossians 3:12-14 (The Message):
So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

Wearing love so people can see God's love,

July 28, 2009

Painful Purpose

Title: Painful Purpose
Verse 1:
Pain pain go away
Come again another day
I can't wish the pain away
It's here to stay

Chorus 1:
God You ease the pain
You give me Your grace
To face another day
You're carrying me through the pain

Verse 2:
Where does life have you?
Would you rather be somewhere else?
Just know

Chorus 2:
God will ease your pain
He will give you His grace
To face another day
He will carry you through the pain

There's purpose in our pain
Because that's when God really shines
We know that

Chorus 3:
God will ease our pain
He will give us His grace
To face another day
He will carry us through the pain

Just something that I have written in my journal. The best way to describe it is God's voice speaking through mine. Also, I am posting another blog with another page from my journal and will update you about my dad in that blog. I hope these words have encouraged you. Life brings pain and sometimes God takes it away just as fast as it came and other times God says I'm not going to take the pain away but I am going to carry you through it. That is what God has told to our family. The pain is here and right now it's here to stay but I'm thankful that God promises to carry me through it and it's the same thing He will do for you. I actually wrote this page in my journal during this cancer journey I'm on with my dad. God is doing an amazing work in my heart as He is showing me that He truely is a Savior that never leaves my side even when I feel like He is nowhere to be found. May you know that God is there for you in your painful purpose that He has for your life.

Thankful for the purpose God has in my pain,

July 25, 2009

Out of Hospital

When people ask us how in the world we can keep our balance during such stormy times, we don't boast. We don't brag. We point unabashedly to the One who makes it possible. Our eyes are on Jesus.
~ Max Lucado

Just wanted all of you to know that my dad got of the hospital today (Saturday). Pray that he will not have any reactions to the chemo. He is doing good just tired. Pray for his energy, appetite, no reactions, and his spirits to stay up. Thank you all for your support, love, and prayers for our family.

May when people ask you how you are able to face another day may you point to the One who gives you another day. We may not know what tomorrow holds but we know Who holds tomorrow and that is more than enough. That is not to say that I wake up every morning excited to face another day but I turn my day over to God and say You are going to have to help me get through another day. Even though I don't understand and have many questions with no answers I trust You anyway. Help to let go of how it should be. Help me to make my life matter today. Help me to love people like You do. I love You. And I start another day and make it through by God's grace. I have good and bad days. In every good and bad day I'm quick to call on the help, grace, and strength of my Savior so that I will live my life to make it matter that day and not think too far ahead but to focus just on today because for right now that is what God has given me.

It's crazy to think that school for me will be starting soon. It brings me back to last year when I started. It's hard to think back last year before December because that is how it should be right now: my dad without cancer and it's not. This journey for me has truly been a process and slowly but surely I'm learning God is a God that is working this for my good. How? Most days I can't see it but I'm trusting that He is and God wants only what is best for me. The holidays are hard thinking back to last year and soon in December the year anniversary will be coming up. Yet I make it through the holidays and another day because I am looking and pointing to the One that makes it possible.

Each day becomes possible because of Who holds that day,

July 22, 2009

Servant of All

Give yourself fully to God. He will use you to accomplish great things on the condition that you believe much more in His love than in your own weakness.
~ Mother Teresa

Just wanted all of you to know that my dad's prodecure went well today. I told you wrong in the other blog about the chemo. The chemo will be for 48 hours. Then he will get another type of chemo for 60 minutes. He was in a lot of pain today. They were able to bring the pain level down which was a blessing for my dad. Pray that he will have no reactions to this chemo, his appetite, pain level, energy, and his spirits. Thank you for the prayers and love that have been shown to our family. Check here daily as I will try my best to post on here to keep you all posted.

Whatever your weaknesses are which we all have them may you show them and believe much more in God's love for you than your weakness. Also, may you show your weakness and not try to hide them. When we are weak that is when God is strong. Delight in your weakness because it's when we are weak that we really allow God to become our strength. Give every part of yourselve to God because that is how we can truely live our lives to make them matter.

Thank you all for showing our family what it truely means to love our neighbors as ourselves. May we look to others needs and not just our own.

May we show kindness the way Philippians 2: 1-4 The Message says:
If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if His love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care - then do Me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don't push your way to the front; don't sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourselve aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obessed with getting your own advantage. Forget about yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.

Could it be that be that God calls us to serve because He knows the joy that comes from being the Servant of all? I think so. Something for us to consider and apply to our lives.

Until next time,

July 21, 2009

Suffering Job

For any person who has tried to see God through shattered glass He speaks.
For those of us who have dared to say "If God is God . . . ," He speaks.
He speaks out of the storm and into the storm, for that is where Job is. That is where God is best heard.
All his life, Job had been a good man. All his life, he had believed in God. All his life, he had discussed God, had notions about Him, and prayed to Him.
But in the storm, Job sees Him.
He sees Hope. Lover. Destroyer. Giver. Taker. Deamer. Deliverer.
Job sees God - and that is enough.
For God gave Job more than Job ever dreamed. God gave Job Himself.
~ Max Lucado

Just wanted all of you to know that my dad will have 24 hours of chemo instead of the 48 hours of chemo tomorrow (Wednesday). Also, when he gets off the 24 hour chemo he will have another type of chemo for 60 minutes instead of 90 minutes. My dad has gained 4 pounds which is awesome. He will get taken to the back to prepare to have the line inserted into the liver at 9:00. Pray that the line getting inserted into the liver goes well and the line goes where it is supposed to go. Also, pray for his appetite, energy, and his spirits to stay up. I will let you all know how he is doing and when he gets out of the hosiptal. Thank you all for the prayers and please countinue them.

The quotes above are from a book I read called In the Eye of the Storm by Max Lucado. It's a good book if you are looking for one to read. In one of the chapters Max talked about Job. If you read the book of Job you will see that Job had a lot of suffering he went through. Job lost all his children, cattle, property, health, and pretty much everything that belonged to him. Even through it all Job instead of turning his back on God choose the unshakable faith that God offered him. Job knew that he served the God who gives and takes away and choose to say blessed be the name of the Lord. Job understand that he could have everything taken away from him but one thing and the most important thing to Job couldn't be taken away. The love of God and his realationship with his Creator. Job had his moments where he didn't understand and questioned God's plans. Job knew what it was like to have ye of little faith moments yet even in those moments Job still choose to trust that God truely had plans to give him a hope and a future even if Job couldn't see it. One thing is for certian Job choose even through the storm in his life to see God and embace the God who has nailed scared hands and understands the very defintion of suffering and pain.

Maybe in your life right now you have a shattered glass situation. It's my prayer that you will let God shine His light and love through the cracks. God understands that you will have your moments of ye of little faith. Even in those moments God doesn't point His finger at you saying you should have more faith but says it's okay and I'm here to comfort and love on you. Let Job be our example. The example of a person who lived a good life and loved God but still had suffering in his life but choose to realize that he had God who promised to never leave him or forsake him and for Job and for us it is more than enough. Through all the suffering Job went through he got more than he ever dreamed. Job expericed God in a whole new way and that is my prayer for you. That whatever you are going through that you would embace God and experince God in a very real and personal way. God is already embacing us in our suffering. The only question to ask ourselves is will we embace the God that never leaves our side?

Embacing God on the journey called life,

Appointments and Check-In Tomorrow (Tuesday)

We are all pencils in the hand of God.
I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world.
~ Mother Theresa

Just wanted all of you to know that my dad has blood test and docter's appointment tomorrow (Tuesday). Also, tomorrow (Tuesday) night he will get admitted into the hosiptal. Then on Wednesday he will get the line inserted into his liver and have chemo for 48 hours. After he gets off the 48 hour chemo he will get another type of chemo for 90 minutes. Pray the line getting inserted into the liver goes well. Also, pray that he will have no reactions to the chemo, for his appetite, energy, and his spirits. Thank you all for your love, support, and prayes you have given our family.

The two quotes above are something I want to blog about at length. My first question for you to think about is what kind of pencils are you in the hand of God? Are you willing pencils? Are you pencils where He decides the colors and drawings that go in your picture? Does God have hold of your pencil or are you holding on to it tightly refusing to let go? Are you a dull pencil or a sharp pencil? We are pencils and we need to let God do the writing. Sometimes though we think our handwriting is cutter or prettier than the handwriting of God. We think we can draw more creative pictures than He can. We choose better colors than He does and we decide it's okay if we become the luke worm dull pencils.

Willing pencils isn't something that comes that easily for us. We may be willing to give some of our time, help other people that need help, or even go on a mission trip. But Lord knows we become less than willing in certain circumstances. Maybe for you the circumstances include moving somewhere else, having a child that is into drugs/alcohol, sickness in your family, finiancial situations, getting told that today is your last day at work, facing a death in your life, your dream not coming true, shame and guilt leaving you feeling worthless, having someone overseas serving our country, and many more. There are many circumstances in life that can leave us less than willing. I'm learning though that God wants to use our lives/pencils to write His love in every circumstance.

The colors that God chooses. God can choose a color and we think we have a better color. Right now in your life God may have given you a dark color in your picture/painting and you long for a brighter color. The dark color in your life can come in many different hard circumstances. I know though that even though you may have been given a dark color in your life right now that God wants to to be the light and bright color in the dark color that is in your life. We can go through the dark colors in our life knowing that God has a bright color waiting for us as He takes our ashes and turns them into beauty. While He takes the ashes and turns them into beauty through our lives and being the willing pencils in His hand God is writing His love letter to the world.

Willing pencil in the hands of a loving God,

July 18, 2009

Heading back to M.D. Anderson

Just wanted to let all of you know that we are heading back to M.D. Anderson tomorrow (Sunday). Pray for safe travel. I will let all of you know when we get there.

My dad's chemo is on Tuesday the 21st. Pray that the line getting inserted into the liver goes well. He will have chemo for 48 hours. Then another type of chemo for 90 minutes. Pray for no reactions to this chemo. Also, pray for his energy, strength, appetite, and spirits.

Thank you all for the support and love you have given our family. Despite what we are going through as individuals and a family I'm so glad to say that I'm truely blessed and so thankful to the God that gives and takes away.

Serving the God who gives and takes away and saying blessed be the name of the Lord,

July 16, 2009

A Perfect Tapestry

I know God is using this awful experience to do something beautiful.
We beat cancer moment by moment as we allow God, not cancer, to control our thoughts. We beat it hour by hour as we remember that God's power within us is greater than the cancer. And we beat it day by day as we trust in God's strength and not in cancer's weakness.
God knows if you are in the desert and He knows how to give you streams in the midst of it.
~ Lynn Eib

Just wanted all of you to know that God has given us a stream in the desert. The biggest stream is being able to be home for this weekend. We actually got home today. We will be heading back to M.D. Anderson on Sunday. So pray on Sunday that we will have safe travel. My dad is not hanging around crowds or people who are sick. He cannot afford to get sick. Also, he is resting too.

May you look and expect God to bring streams in whatever desert you are facing. This is one of the many streams He has given us. We are seeing how God really does His best work in brokenness and how He is turning the ashes into beauty. The process of the "something beautiful" being created is certainly not easy and pain free but I know that is going to be so worth it in the end. Why? Because through each thing God is drawing us closer to Him and showing us how deep, long, and wide His love truely is. I know that God is painting a beautiful picture of His amazing grace through this. The grace that is sufficient for my every moment and need. I will always be thankful and quick to thank the Artist that is doing the work by taking the tattered fabric of my life and turning it into a perfect tapestry. The perfect tapestry that can only be created by my loving God who turns ashes into beauty.

Thankful to the Artist who is painting His grace,

July 14, 2009

Passing through the Waters with God by my Side

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, i will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
~ Isaiah 43:1-2 (NIV)

Just wanted all you to know that my dad's next chemo is Tuesday the 21st. He will have the same prodecure done as the last time. They will go in and insert the line into his liver. After the line is inserted into the liver he will have chemo for 48 hours. When he finishes the 48 hour chemo he will have a different type of chemo for 90 minutes. After this chemo they will do another scan to see if this directed chemo to the liver is working.

Just want all of you to know that we miss home so much. Especially the people back home. It's hard journey that my dad and our family is on but we know that God is, has, and will hold us through this journey.

The verse at the top of the page is a verse that has always been one of my favorites and one that has brought a lot of comfort to me during this time of my life. This verse talks about how God will be with us in the hard times of life. So often and much to my frustation it's a fact that causes a lot confusion amoung people. We like to wrap up Christianity in a box and put a nice bow on top and tell people to become a Christian and your life will be perfect and problem free. We put on smiles to cover up the pain we hold inside. We let people know us to a certain point. We try to look together so people will think that we have it all together even though we really don't have it all together. We try to show people that we are spiritual and strong by showing people we can get through anything instead of showing people we are weak and need the strength of God to get through the day. We would much rather put on our smiles and happy face mask than become real and transparent. Why? Because being real and transparent is risky and not always the safest thing. By being real and transparent we show people we are not as strong as people thought we were. We show people that we are not perfect and can't hold it all together. Here's what I'm learning though and God is showing me there is no such thing as perfect people and there is no such thing as a perfect life. So often we think we have to come to God with all the answers, all together, and our mess all cleaned up. I'm learning though that God says that we can come to Him just as we are because that is how He likes, loves, and accepts us. I encourage you to get real with God because He sees who you really are and our Creater says wonderful beautiful is my creation. This verse doesn't say if but when as in things are going to happen in life that aren't the easiest thing. That hard times are a part of life and we will experience some of type of pain if we are breathing but this verse as many verses throughout God's word assure us that in those times He will be with us and we have a Savior that promises never to leave or forsake us. I hope and pray that this brings you some encouragment. To know whatever you are going through you don't have to go through it alone because God promises to be with you every step of the way.

Being real and transparent,

July 11, 2009

Painful Circumstances

The faith that gets us through unthinkable circumstances begins with being flat-out needy and allowing God's love to wrap us up, hold us close, and dry our tears.
We don't need a meter to tell us which pain hurts the most. All of our heartaches produce great sadness, and telling our stories to each other brings a release, comfort, and the knowledge that somebody cares.
~ Carol Kent

I wanted to update you all about the doctor’s appointment on Thursday. Everything went really good and the doctor said my dad looked good. His platelets were really good. Everything looked good. My dad has said that his back is not hurting him as bad which is a really good sign. Continue to pray for my dad's pain because he still in pain just not as much, his appetite, and that he would keep his spirits high. We are waiting to see when our next appointment is and when he will have chemo again. When we find all that out I will let you all know.

I included some quotes from a book I have already finished. The book is called When I Lay my Isaac Down by Carol Kent. It was a really good book. So if you are looking for a book to read I would suggest this one.

Our family last year in December was handed an unthinkable circumstance but because of God's love that wraps us, holds us, and dries our tears we survive another day. There have been many tears that have been cried over these months. More than I probably have ever cried but each tear I feel falling down my face I feel God saying cry my child cry my Son has even wept and while I am crying I feel myself in the safe arms of God. I never really considered the verse Jesus wept as a very dear verse to me but now it is one that I cherish. Not only because it shows us that Jesus was human but because Jesus knew the pain in life that not only causes you to cry but weep. I know that my tears and our tears as a family are not being wasted because of the promise that though our mourning may last for the night God gives us His joy in the morning and new mercies for us to receive.

I will never say that my pain level is higher than yours. Pain is pain in whatever circumstance it comes in. If we are breathing we will experience pain in this world. Not because we are being punished for something we did but because that is just life. I take great comfort knowing though that God has already promised even though we will experience pain in this life that He has already overcome the world. In other words God has already overcome your circumstance and situation. How do I know this? Because we serve a God that can move mountains no matter how big or small or what it is God can remove it.

I am finding when we share our painful experiences without saying and putting a measure stick to pain that it is comforting and freeing. Comforting to know that I'm not the only one going through painful things and freeing to be real and transparent. All the while showing people in the process that the Christian life is not the easy life or problem/pain free life but it's the abundant and joy filled life. In fact it's THE life. There is no other life like it because this is the life God created us for. Abundant and joy filled life even through the morning and pain we experience.

I have the knowledge that somebody cares for me in this painful journey in life. Not just the people in my life but the One who knows the definition of the word pain. He has the nailed scared hands to prove it and it's the very same hands I am being held by.

In the nailed scared hands,

July 8, 2009

Blood Test and Appointment Tomorrow (Thursday)

Our broken lives are not lost or useless. God's love is still working, He comes in and takes the calamity and uses it victoriously, working out His wonderful plan of love.
~ Eric Liddell
To live by grace means to acknowledge my whole life story, the light side and the dark. In admitting my shadow side I learn who I am and what God's grace means.
~ Brennan Manning
Heartache forces us to embrace God out of desperate, urgent need. God is never closer than when your heart is aching.
~ Joni Earkeckson Tada

Just wanted all of you to know that my dad has blood test at 1:30 and appointment at 3:00 tomorrow (Thursday). I will update you after the appointment to let you know how it went.

Whatever you are going through may you know that God's grace is sufficient for you. It's enough and God is all we need to get through the shadows of life. As a line in a song called How He Loves by Kim Walker says if grace is an ocean we are all sinking. God grace is more than enough for whatever we are going through.

Sinking in God's grace,

July 6, 2009

Joy in the Sorrow

Will we live our lives with passion and purpose even if, in this lifetime, we are not permitted to have an answer to why something has happed?Will we choose unshakable faith or we will give up on God in difficult circumstances?As much as I don't like the process, I am learning that the cup of sorrow can also be the cup of joy.
~ Carol Kent

I just wanted to do an update for all of you. My dad is doing well. His appetite is great. He hasn't run any fever yet. I would say to me he has looked better than he has in the past couple of months. Continue to pray for no fever, appetite, and no pain.

The questions and statement above are from a book I'm currently reading. I love the statement that says as much as I don't like the process, I am learning that the cup of sorrow can also be the cup of joy. I will be perfectly honest with you and tell you not only do I not like the process I hate it and would do anything to change it. I don't wish cancer on anybody or someone to have to go through it with a loved one. As many times that I have been down, broken, tired, and ready to just quit God gives me another reason to keep going and more importantly the grace and strength to keep going.

I don't like it one bit but I have to remind myself that God promises to never leave me nor forsake me and He truly is a Friend like no other. I will never pretend to have the answer or the why our family was chosen to walk this path. It doesn't make sense and it may never make sense but God is drawing us as a family and individuals closer to Him daily.

At times the wave of emotions come and through all the emotions good and bad I have my sweet and gentle Savior calling me back to Truth. The truth that even though I don't understand or at times can't see the purpose of this that He works ALL things including my situation together for good. The truth that I don't have to hold it all together in fact I can't hold it all together but I can come to the God who holds the world together in His hands. The truth my God alone is enough for me. The truth when I feel like I have just been kicked in the gut God will me the grace to catch my breath again.

So yes this journey of my life is very hard and something that I wish God would just simply take away because I know He can but clinging to the fact that even the morning may last for the night joy comes in the morning. Even though at times I can't always see God healing my dad I know that He is. I'm thankful to say though right now I can physically these past couple of days see God healing my dad. I know though I may not always see it but have to trust that God knows what He is doing and it will happen in His time and His time alone. Our hearts can feel broken at times but we know God will and is healing and binding up every wound on them.

May you choose the unshakable faith instead of giving up on God in the hard and easy times. In the hard times I understand how easily and tempting it can be to turn our backs on God but that cost us so much when we do that. In the easy times it's easy to think we don't need God's strength and grace to get through that day. During the easy times it's easy to let pride start sneaking its way into our life. I once heard that pride makes you fall but shame and guilt keep you from getting up. May you never let pride cause your fall and may you always realize God is saying to you to get back up and that He will give you the strength and grace to do it. Even though you may give up or have given up on Him God promises that He hasn't and will never give up on you. God doesn't force Himself on us but gently and quietly calls to us with His love, grace, mercy, and forgiveness that He wants you to take a hold of. I am not telling you that you will have all the answers in this life and that your life will be problem free when we choose the unshakable faith God has for us but it's an abundant and joy filled life even through the trails and storms that come your way on this journey called life.

It's almost 1:30 in the morning so I better go to bed. I'm going to bed thankful for the joy my Savior gives me when I wake up and the new mercies I receive.

In the season of sorrow and joy,

July 4, 2009

Happy 4th of July and Out of Hospital

Let love and faithfulness never leave you. Bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet on your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
~ Proverbs 3:3-6

My dad got of the hospital today around 3:00. He is doing good. When my aunt and I went to the hospital to pick up my mom and dad I asked my dad how he was feeling. He said he felt he just been run over by a truck. Basically he says he is really tired and feels like he has no energy. He has been in hotel resting since he got out. Countine to pray that he doesn't have any reactions these 3 weeks while we are here. Also, that his stength and energy will come back. Pray for his appetite as well.

Our next docter's appointment is this Thursday. After the appointment I will update you on what the docter says. Countine to check this site for updates. I will post as often as I can.

I want to say a quick thank you to Mrs. Julia and Mr. Marvin for stopping by. It was good to see you. Thank you also for your sweet prayer that you prayed with our family before yall left.

Hope you all have had a good 4th of July. I am thankful for the troops that serve our country.

The verse above is one of my favorite verses and the verse I live by life by. It's easy to lean on our understanding but God calls us to seek and consult Him with descions that need to be made in our life. Whether it's big or small God wants to be involved in every aspect of our life. Not because He is trying to force Himself on you but because He cares. Plus God never forces Himself on us. God gives us the opotion to choose to let Him in or shut Him out. It's my prayer that you would let God in every part of your life despite what it is. It's when we seek God with all of our heart that we find Him. God promises that we always find Him when we seek. Seek Him in all areas of your life and when do that like the verse above says God and God alone will make our paths straight.

Thank you all for the prayers, love, and support you have shown are family. We are truely blessed and may God bless each and every one of you.

Trusting in God alone,

July 3, 2009

Confident Hope

Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.~ Romans 12:12, NLT

Today my dad has had a good day. He got off the 48 hours chemo at 4:30 today. He also is having the line in his liver removed today and he will have to keep his right leg still for 6 hours. Then he will get the other type of chemo tonight for 90 minutes. Tomorrow (Saturday) considering he does not have any reactions he will get out of the hosiptal. He will be able to come back to the hotel and rest. We will be here for 3 weeks to make sure he doesn't have any reactions to the chemos he has had.

As the verse above says keep on praying for my dad and our family. Countine to check this website for updates daily. Thank you all for the support and love you have shown our family. So many of you have emailed, called, sent cards, and even given out of your own pockets. We have been truely blessed by each one of you who has helped in one way or another. May God bless each and every single one of your efforts.

Trusting in my confident Hope,

July 2, 2009

Broken Willing Vessel

My dad is doing wonderful. He started his 2nd bag of chemo at 4:30 today. Tomorrow (Friday) he will get off the chemo he is currently on at 4:30. Then he will get another type of chemo for 90 minutes. After that he will get the line taken out of his liver. Then he will have to lie still for 6 hours. My dad should get out of the hospital on Saturday considering that he does not have any reactions to the chemo. After, he is out of the hosiptal we will be here for 3 weeks.

Countine to pray that the chemo does its job. My dad has had a really good appetite. Pray that he will countine not to have any reactions. The only thing so far that he has had is sweating from the chemo. Other than that he has been doing really good on the chemo. Countine to also pray for George that I mentioned in the last blog.

We had a couple of visits today and it was really nice. My dad enjoyed seeing them. Thank you Mr. David for coming out to see my dad and praying with us. Also, our pastor and his wife showed up to see my dad. Thank you Bro. Tommy and Mrs. Karen for stopping by. Sorry I wasn't there to see you. I know my dad and mom were thankful to see you and enjoyed visiting. Thank you for praying for my dad too.

I will blog later about something that has been on my heart.

I don't know about you but I have moments where I think about how much God has blessed me in my life. I have wonderful parents, a great family, friends that keep me smiling, and a wonderful church full of amazing people. Despite what our family has been given I still have to remind myself that I am blessed beyond measure. To remember God has given me a lot more wonderful things than bad things in my eyes. Despite where life has you may you look to Giver of all things and see what He has blessed you with and realizing that we serve a God who brings beauty from ashes when we are a willing vessel even if it is a broken willing vessel.

Thankful for the beauty God brings in our brokeness,

July 1, 2009


Just want all of you to know that my dad's prodecure today went well. I was with him before he went back and he was very peaceful knowing that he was and countines to be in God's hands. He started chemo at 4:30 today. He will have chemo for 48 hours. Countine to pray that the chemo destroys the bad cells and leaves the good ones alone. Also, that he will not have any reactions to the chemo.

Also, we met someone that worked there today by the name of George. I am just going to ask you to include him in your prayers. My mom asked him today if there was anything that he wanted us to pray about for him. He started telling us some of his life story. He has had it rough. He asked us and I am asking you to pray for wisdom for George. We would appeciate that but importantly George would be thankful to you for lifting his name up in prayer.

There is something that has been on my heart that I want to blog about at length and I will do that when I have more time. Maybe later tonight and maybe tomorrow.

Thank you all again for your prayers and countine praying. Your love and support for our family has been humbling and deeply appeciated.

May you count the blessings in your life and then thank the Giver of all things.

Thanking the Giver of all things,