May 23, 2009

Summer is Here

Its official for me that I'm out of school. I got out on Friday and had finals this past week. I am so glad I'm out. So now that I am out I will have more free time and I will try to post more often.

The scan results came back. Basically his pancreas stayed the same size which is good that it didn't grow but we would have liked for it to shrink. The spots on the liver grew but not as fast. Again good that the spots are not growing as fast but we don't want the spots growing. Period.

It can get frustrating at times. A wave of emotions can show up at any secound. But even in the midst of the sometimes very strong wave of emotions I have to take a deep breath and remind myself that God is in control. Even though I don't always see it I have to have the faith that He is always working in my situation.

The verse at the top of this blog talks about how God has turned the storm to a whisper. I like to think about that like this. The storm is still there and will probably countine to be here for a while but through the storm there is a peace that only God can give. It is a journey that is truely one day at a time. Other times the wave of emotions come and it becomes moment by moment. But even in the moment by moment or day by day God gives me His grace that is made sufficient for every moment of every single day.

So even though this part of my life can be very dark I know that God is taking the ashes and turning them into a beautiful picture that only He could create.

So yes it is a journey that is not the easiest thing and certainly not one that we would have picked as a family or individuals. But even in it we know as a family and individuals that God is speaking in it and showing everyone that looks at our life that He takes the painful things, scary things, and hard things and is painting a beautiful picture of His amazing grace. Through our family we pray that people will see we serve a God who is faithful and never fails us.

Letting God take the ashes and turn them into beauty. Will you do the same?

May 10, 2009

Scan Tomorrow

Tomorrow will be a scan for my dad to see if this type of chemo is working. Please keep him in your prayers and that the results will come back showing that the chemo is working as it should be. We should get the results on Wednesday so I'll update about the results then.

Today we had our family pictures made. My mom wanted that for Mother's Day so we went to church, went out to eat, and then went and had our pictures made. We got some really good ones. I will post some later.

A couple more weeks and school is out for me. I am so ready to be out. If I could ask you a favor will you please pray for me this week and next week. This is the week before finals and then next week is finals so it will be stressful. That I will have the energy and strength I need to get through it.

At the top of this blog is one of my favorite verses and a verse that always motivates me to love people like Jesus did. I can do everything for Him, I can give money to charity, and volunteer my time to help other people in need but if I do all that and have not loved people during the process then I have gained nothing at all. One of my favorite authors is Max Lucado he says the secret to loving is living loved. By living loved Max is talking about letting the One who made you love you despite where you are and what your past is. We can not give something if we haven't first received something. We will never by ourselves be able to love people the way that Jesus did unless we take hold of His love for us first. Once we have received God's love for us then we can't help but share it with broken and hurting people. That includes the people who are rude, who aren't in our circles, and everyone that crosses our path.

So I'm asking you to do yourselve a favor. Go rest in the amazing love God has waiting for you to receive and then once you receive it go share that love with every single person that crosses your path.

If you are a mom reading this I hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day.

May you be swept away by God's everlasting love for you and the love that will never fail you,